the moment i knew

10 Jun

today my handsome husband is starting his BOLC (basic officer leadership course – basically army basic training for officers that is branch specific) before he graduates vanderbilt medical school in may. that way he can graduate and go straight to his residency without worrying about this army requirement. (go bun!)

anyway, talking with him about his BOLC has made me think back to my BOLC, which i attended four years ago. (!!!!! it seems like yesterday, still) besides all of the things that made BOLC so interesting and the memories/friends i gained, what i really have been thinking about was the moment i knew i would be leaving the army as soon as i could.

it was one of the first days of BOLC – the first few weeks are dedicated to common army tasks like qualifying on your weapon, and doing land navigation, and convoy operations (later you move in to branch specific thing) – and i’m not totally sure what the lesson was supposed to be about. maybe professional military ethics? something classroom based. well, the course was taught by the major in charge of all of SBOLC (i think there were three rotating classes at a time) and he posed to us a challenge: to describe ourselves with as many nouns as we wanted.

mine went something like this: “daughter, sister, girlfriend, friend, explorer” or something like that.

well, after our little brain storming session, and also after i complimented one of my classmates on his wedding band (and then was told to “focus on the task at hand” by the major instead of complimenting jewelry), the major stood in front of the classroom and asked to hear what we had come up with. it wasn’t interesting. but after he had heard enough, he said, “if you haven’t included ‘soldier’ on your list you shouldn’t be in the army.” i knew it was meant as a coming-to-jesus moment for people to understand the massive responsibility we were undertaking, but to me (even after four years of west point) it blatantly showed me that being a solider wasn’t part of my identity and i needed to leave.

either way, random major who i will never see again, you’ll be happy to know i’ve turned in my paperwork to be done with my service in may of 2017! woo!

xoxo,
annie

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4 Responses to “the moment i knew”

  1. Kimberly Cale June 12, 2016 at 6:10 am #

    I am so very proud of you and am so excited for you and Chris! And having a front seat to watch your adventure in the journey of life, is the best! I love you!

  2. Smalls June 24, 2016 at 10:20 pm #

    You reminded me and, more critically, actually showed me something important about being a Chief, Sailor (Soldier), and person: don’t ever lose your humanity. Kindness and compassion are always worthwhile, even and especially in the military. Thank you for doing this at a time when I felt myself becoming hard, bitter, and negative! You are a tremendous asset to the Army and it is 100% their loss. I wish you all the best in your transition and future!!! <3

    • Anastasia Kristina June 27, 2016 at 9:18 am #

      Jeanna, you’re so kind to say that :) I loved working with you and getting to know you and being your friend!! thanks for everything!! (including how to slice a mango in the most efficient way lol)

  3. Dom J October 11, 2016 at 1:41 am #

    The Army will definitely miss you!!! I know I do!

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